Lost for words. The biggest day of your life should be met with joy, love and breathtaking beauty. xx
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A party going on - Day 6
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In a lonely tent in the middle of a field there is a party... I guess its not so lonely after all?
Beyond beautiful - Day 4
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A photograph doesn't do justice... The beauty that this small person possesses is breath taking.
I'll be waiting for you - Day 3
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So hard to choose. I wear bottle bottom glasses... Mummy goggles... when it comes to the girls. To me each of them is unique and quite divine. I have mummy goggles on, and probably the strongest prescription available. So its difficult to pick a shot for today.
Today I sat - DAY TWO
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Today I sat with someone whom I admire, respect and adore. Life has a funny way of dealing our cards and sometimes we struggle and question why it can be so god damn difficult. Person I sat with today... I just want you to know that your heart and spirit is so large. You are on the right path.... be alive with your journey and feel no guilt because however it ends up you will both win... no questions asked. Thank you for being who you are because its pretty god damn awesome!!! It got dark quickly today - as it does in winter - I realized around the...oops too late mark and had to improvise with what I could.
So this is it!! I hope your day was as cool as mine xxx
And so it begins - DAY ONE
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Its been a battle of momentous proportions. An inner struggle to hunt, search for the voice I feel as though I have lost. I guess its something everyone at some stage would suffer. The feelings of insecurity, the personal pressure that we put upon ourselves. A very wise and brilliant man once said (Jonathan Canlas I salute you). That we need to shoot for ourselves...its vital. I nod my head in agreement however I know that I have lost the ability to do so due to my anxiety of failure... what if no one likes what I do? What if I see something that no one else can? Today a voice screamed inside my head.... get up and just do it.... put down that plate of food and take some pictures... of anything... maybe nothing, but just begin.
SO day one.... and tomorrow will be day two and so on.
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Make sure you love
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And laugh.... its the best medicine
F.I.N.D
I could sit here for hours.... and hours.... and I would still struggle to find the perfect words. I have deleted.... and written.... and deleted again.
10 days ago I struggled, I found waking to be a chore..... I am time poor, there are not enough days in my hours, and I find it hard to keep my head above the rush of water that is overwhelming me. Yes I signed up for this, its my doing.... but I struggle. On Sunday I left for Melbourne to take 3 days... this was a massive loan from my time bank and to begin I'm not sure my 'head' was in it... my heart however needed this. To say that my expectations were met and then some is an understatement, Jonathan Canlas you are indeed a person who is whole and real. Not only do I feel overwhelmed and exuberant about beginning the journey of film but I feel blessed that I was brave enough to stop my world and take the time to rediscover my reason for doing what I do.
Again I cannot F.I.N.D the perfect words..... all I can say is that I met people that I will hopefully know forever.
Jonathan Canlas One million times over I can't tell you how great you are!! Tavis Johnson Your smile is infectious, your humor is more so!!! Leah Kua Roomie, thank you for being so great!!! Nothing more to say..... your just great!! Samm Blake Some people would give their first borns to have the talent that you possess. Embrace your new chapter cause its going to be a goodie. Thank you for being so frigin cool MUWAHHH Jonas Peterson Need I say more....... You saved my A** and for that I am grateful. Your humbleness and mega talent is infectious... and even better.... you know where all the great bars are!! Jodie Mcdonald Ba ha hahahahahahahahahahahahaha........ my belly still aches.... Thank you for making me laugh xx Beata English Your just damn right cool x Roweena Timson The moment I met you I knew you were gold.... your heart literally shines. Janine Kaye Believe in yourself my friend, you deserve every inch of it. Liz Arcus Thank you for making those beautiful children, be proud!!! They and you are beyond amazing. Emma Star I shall sneak into your house when you are asleep and steal your polaroid jacket... because it is way cool xx Adrian Tuazon WOW WOW WOW.... I would like you to adopt me!!!! You are so blessed and just beyond talented!! Trish Lee Awwwwwwww Now I want to adopt YOU!!! You are gorgeous NUFF said!!! Nicole Spears Thank you for carrying the coolest camera EVA..... Helena Sofia Go you great Kiwi (slash Dutch) girl..... NZ LOOK OUT!! Angela Higgins It was lovely meeting you!!!
I just wanna say, FILM IS NOT DEAD and neither is life. If you want to attend a workshop..... that will blow your mind... do not hesitate...... F.I.N.D. This is all I have to say!
Tick tock
As time ticks, faster than I wish..... I wait patiently for my life to catch up to my world. I wistfully wish I could stop all movements and catch my breath, alas the clock hands still move around.... and around.... and around. If you are waiting for me, if you are wishing I was more present, please know that I am..... here.... I just need my life to catch up with my world, and I am working very hard at making that happen.
